i dont know why we're the type of people who need to wait after parts of our system complain that we can't take anymore before going home and just sleeping the mundane activities set out before us off. i know some people who need no prodding especially from their bodies to take a day or an afternoon off a shitty day. i guess we're just built like that...pushing ourselves to accomplish the tiniest bit of chore on our plates. until everything blurs and we lose sight of why we push ourselves to the ground in the first place.
i am still getting used to the idea of working smart against working hard...some days i really think about cutting corners and just doing what's needed for that hour and going out and having some semblance of life outside work. i know my friends think i've been too enamored with my bf which is why i have been incommunicado or anti-social lately, but really i dont even see him until its time to go home and i have to drive us home. i'm too tired to even have dinner with him so we can talk about his day and my day and its really unfair to him and my friends. so unfair that i give him saturday with me so that he doesnt think i'm neglecting him like he always says i do. i dont know when life got so hectic that the last time i saw mia amparo was 4 freaking months ago (and sparingly during bia's bday) and cha, maan and ira 4 weeks ago (before bia's bday - when i had to dash off after half an hour that it felt really crazy, and before that,yes i think 3 months ago too). i was doing my makati route 3 weeks ago and neva and i were able to squeeze lunch in since she was in the area where i was...
is this part of growing up? schedules not matching so that we are in different places at certain times
that we even have schedules on weekends is crazy...they used to be just days when we can sleep in and not carry the world's worries on our shoulders. they are days for not taking a bath and watching TV non-stop...
cha is right to want some time for herself...at least quality time to do what she wants while she's trying to eke out a living. i still believe that's more important...time with people who also want to be with her
that's also what i want for myself.
enough quality time so i have something i can look back to as my wonder years...
is this part of growing up? schedules not matching so that we are in different places at certain times
that we even have schedules on weekends is crazy...they used to be just days when we can sleep in and not carry the world's worries on our shoulders. they are days for not taking a bath and watching TV non-stop...
cha is right to want some time for herself...at least quality time to do what she wants while she's trying to eke out a living. i still believe that's more important...time with people who also want to be with her
that's also what i want for myself.
enough quality time so i have something i can look back to as my wonder years...